Today I just need to vent. Even though this blog is for the public and I am expressing my personal thoughts, I feel like it could maybe provide comfort for others who have faced similarities of their discomforts.  Maybe I am (I feel like it), maybe I'm not--that's the whole point of today's journal, I am probably not the only person going through things. I think that when you tend to feel like you're constantly on the move, your stress goes up. You can't seem to catch up on what you're doing to move on to the next step.  I think that it shouldn't be bottled in and you should really just reach out for support. You should talk to a close friend, relative or even a counselor. As crazy as it sounds it doesn't have to be someone you know deeply but that;s besides the point, you should always speak to someone for advice because it only makes things worse when you think you are able to handle them by yourself.

As mich as I come home and miss it, it's hard to believe that I actually can't stay here too long because it drives me crazy! Before I got back home I told myself this break wouldn't be long enough..well I was wrong. I'm ready to go back to Kalamazoo and fast

So I know I topic is a little strange, but I was just pondering upon a question that I randomly thought of :

If you were driving and contemplated on picking up someone who seemed to be in trouble on the side of the road (yes, hitchhiking). Now even though it's a sketchy situation there has to be some sympathy for a person like that right? You wouldn't just pick up some 6 foot tall guy in a Jack the Ripper coat. My question is what would your acception of letting someone in your car have be? What would they have to look like or how would their story have to sound ?

So a couple of weeks back I came back from this class. I was on the phone talking to my mom and upon me entering the room my roommate asked have I seen the group chat that we were and said "no,  why?" so once I looked at the group chat I seen the pictures of me being made fun. They were posted via snapchat but screens hotted into out group chat. At first It didn't even make sense to me because I kept asking myself, who could've possibly been taking pictures of me and posting them? And how does this person even know my friends? It didn't really click until I thought about it after a few minutes and looked at the camera angle. Then I  realized who it was because he was even sitting at a table with 2 people that are in the groupchat with me, so I instantly knew. One of my friends said he messaged the boy on snapchat asking if he knew me and the kid said no. I thought it was kind of ironic how they were snapchat friends. I seen the kid from class a few weeks later in the advising office and confronted him. He tried to act as if he didn't know what I was talking about but I reassured him. Another student sitting next to me looked over a few times after overhearing our conversation. I knew he wanted to laugh but I didn't want to be more noticeable than it already was casual. Moral of the story: Don't make fun of other people or at least be careful if you're going to do it  because you never know who knows who.

Me being home is what I actually kind of miss.  In a way I feel like I am almost having a hard time coping with this enviotnment on top of still having to be the student that I am lingo to be. I am trying to challenge myself but still be aware of how I manage my time.  I think me being away from home has actually giving me the advangtage to see what kind of person I will become in the future and testing my responsibilities. I want to be self-conscientious about my descisions as I said in my previous blogs. Although it seems to have been a rough couple of  months I am still managed to keep up with myself and stay ahead of myself. Sometimes I may get off track but I talk to my family about it, reasssure myself and continue what I'm doing. I feel boess do that I have guidance from whom I have it from and I am glad to have people who believe in me.

Day by day I see how I progress in maturity and realize how important it is to take care of business and have everything I need in the future. I am seeing what it means and knowing how it feels to make my own decisions without my parents. I am more dependent on myself in terms paying my own way outside of tuition cause that is what parents are supposed to do (pun intended). My goal is to depend on them less and less as time moves along considering they have three of my siblings and themselves  to still provide for. Boy the end of my sophomore year I plan to have little to no fall backs on them providing me with extra money I can provide for myself. This will help me get used to things early on and manage my money better and later being completley used to this by time I am 20( I will be turning 19 on December 3rd). It's definetly  a  good idea to have a financial foundation and plan to know what you want to do for the fututre in terms of individuality!

Here is to anyone with a roommate situation:  I want to start off first by saying you should never address the situation in a negative way. Try talking to family members to get their perspective on the situation. You should never be demanding to your roommate if there is a problem that needs to be changed or addressed, i.e if you take take the garbage out more than they do, clean up more than they do etc. You should always consider finding an alternative before you address the problem. Not even just from family members, you could also consider talking to other friends who are in residents halls as well to see what type of approaches they would take. It is not at all easy living with a stranger, which leaves me to say that could be the least of your worries. Everyone wants to pick someone that know to room with: not your best friend but someone who you have more than likely went to school with and have things in common with. Everything could be going great the first month or so, until you run into problems when one of you has to get up for classes earlier than the other right? On your end this could become quite irritating if she/he is turning on the lights when you are still sleeping, plays music when you don't want to hear it, or has people over when you are studying. Do not wait until you are completely fed up to address the problem. This will lead to more problems and creates unwanted tension, awkwardness and more than likely bad results an overall bad experience which could ruin your relationship with the person as a whole. Always remain respectful, and address the situation in that manner. Again, you can have a preference, ask or recommend but never demand or tell them something thinking that it will fix the situation because it isn't going to fix the problem!